Longing for something I never had.

I feel like im trying to hard for nothing.
I want the lord to grant me with something.
In a postion of feeling unlucky.
When everything else is going right.
Where is he.
Is he lost?
Or in sight.
I see his soul.
I wanna grow old with him.
Bear babies and eat m&ms.
I feel like im trying to hard for nothing.
I want the lord to grant me something.
Being blessed doesnt require a wish
Being loved i already have.
I just want a better half.
Longing for something i never had.