i miss him, too bad i aint met him yet

i miss him, too bad i aint met him yet.

but have i?

is he the guy...

that guy walking down the street?'

in my english 103, too bad that isn't a course..

but if it was i wish we were both regesitered and i dropped my books and he picked them up..

traded numbers & became apart of the "study club"...

i long for wht hasnt been showed.

ive came but ive heard all the words before

the same game consistently and constantly repeated

words that have no meaning irrelevant friviolous bullshit to get me lured in...

but still i miss him, too bad i aint met him yet.

i have hope besides my past pain..

im just waiting for the person who remains..

dont just wanna take my clothes off and say my name..

i wanna be furthermore everything that hes been looking for

blow his mind inside and outside

emotionally internally verbally interwined..

more that meets the eye..

i want it all thats why i risk it all..

& such all that i risk

i'll see you next lifetime mister..

Sunday Night

crying on a sunday night

eyes red puffy hazey like

sniffling on a sunday night

tears falling aint wiping em from my eyes

caring about wht you have to say on a sunday night

wondering why you cant see wht I have to offer

wondering why you seek defense mechanisms so i cant get through to you

wondering why you cant get a fucking clue

i just wanna shut off emotions

i wish my fucking heart wasnt so WIDE OPEN

i make these common mistakes commonly

we aint nsync we aint even in a harmony

i question wht the fuck are we

as i slowly let it all GO

no worries no more

and as a cry on this sunday night

i just realized how amazing i was and how pitiful of a guy you are

Very Vulgar

give me lace

fuck an embrace

fuck me in my pumps

smear my lipstick on your collar

call your girlfriend so she can hear me holler

vulgarity very much

too much who gives a fuck

im raw and impetous

may contradict my presence but im still a miss

miss me misses

give me ruffles

give me chocolate truffles

pink pearls and white nail polish

cherry blossom flowers

tell me you love me every single hour

give me the world

tell me im your grl

lie to me

love me

no dates

just wine and grapes

kisses fingers lips dick in, lovely experience ...

take all of me engross in me beware be cautious i'm a lot to eat ,

& he.

& he dont care.

nnahh he don't care.

care about my skin.

care about my well being.

care about my shoulder length hair.

care about my heart beat.

care about what i have to say or speak

& he dont listen.

he just wanna be kissin.

he just wanna fuck.

he dont wanna be in love.

& he lies.

aint never good at goodbyes

dont care about the tears wellin' in my eyes.

nah he has no potential but yet i see more in him then see's in himself

that i actually have the audacity to question myself

& that he dont care & that he dont listen & that he lies i dont care if he says good bye because now tears come down my eyes & its not cuz he said goodbye...

its cuz i cared too fucking much inside.

she.

and if she said it, she meant it.

and if she wore it, it wasnt cheap.

and if she loved you, her heart still beats.

and if

and if it

and if she

she will always be, dont be afraid to speak.

she, her, yeah thats me. =)