Monday, November 30, 2009

half plate or full plate

its funny how they choose the half plate...
only getting half gets you nowhere.
i see u standing there.
im shaking my heart in despair.
i have a full plate.
more than enough food to spare.
but yet u look with disgrace.
choose whats easier for your to devour.
you dont have time to try.
so i walk away w/my full plate in tow.
passing each and every person dropping food onto the floor.
i try to pick it up but every piece that has been dropped has been eaten.
my heart and soul begin to leak.
plate falls crumbles and leaves.
so as u settle for ur half plate i'll hold on to my full plate,one day someone strong enough can attempt to eat it and be content w/thee until then it'll just be me.

04.03.09

i tried to hide my insecurities
my insecurities about you and me
i tried to turn my heart off
but in love theirs no on and off electrical switch
nothing can be matched nor compared to this
im in a zone i just wanna go back to the beautiful bliss
i tried to hide my emotions
but i always ended up sleeping w/a broken heart battered and unsheltered
some words arent needed, some heart beats beat the same rhythm
so the insecurities have been secured
my heart is no longer a revolving door
so the emotions dont matter anymore
being emotional cant control me like before
making it w/out u was the hardest for me to do but its what i had to

Sunday, November 22, 2009

Mate?

I hope I'm not wrong about this.
Feelings don't come and go like this.
But I'm ready to feel much more.
Ur absence has made me miss your presence which is further beyond my control.
I just hope its worth my time.
Us we u and I.

I hope I'm not giving too much of I.
'Cuz I hate that feeling and at this time its hard to describe why.
But I will say I'm tired of wiping salty tears at night.

With that said I'll just wait for the truth,&for the u. The u that makes me not wonder whether or not there's another just like u yet not make me wonder if our stability has capabilities.

So I'll treat u as a good friend until my heart can truly define and comprehend.

Maybe one day, maybe one will stay..that U will be my mate<3.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

last try.

yet my heart yearns
the feeling is unberable it burns
feels like heartburn
yet my feelings change
smiles turn to frowns leading to disgrace
tears flow longer than the water in the atlantic ocean
heart still wounded shots fired chest open
this is what i deserve or is there more, im hoping.

Sunday, November 8, 2009

heart

heartbroken to the core
ive heard the excuses so many times before
heartbroken to the core
my heart doesnt feel the same
heartbroken to the core
nothing lasts anymore
my throat is always sore
my voice is always cracked
a feeling i always feel and or felt
heartbroken to the core
love doesnt live here anymore
heartbroken to the core
your memory is vague
heartbroken to the core
the pain still arrives
the tears well up and roll down my eyes
the pain goes into my stomach
i no longer want it,this is what i get for keepin' it 100?

untitled

when im with you my walls come tumbling down
when im with you i dont hear any sounds
the only sounds are me and you breathing heavily, hands roaming too
when im with you i could have a care in the world
you ease me, make me feel like a little girl
when im with you i try to make up for lost time
i feel together, i feel ashamed and then i cry
when im with you its us againtst the odds
im not worried about to tomorrow
when im with you i know you arent going
when im with you the true feelings i have a hard time showing


you me time growing future perhaps words knowing

he dont dance but tango with two..

and as ur blind to see he's not just dancing w/u..
let alone u not me yes her yes she
back and forth round and round he switches partners and as he found..
and as shes blind to see
the man that she's in love w/wants me
im not the homewrecker
this aint jerry springer
this is what it is
and i'll be sure to give u the finger
ur hypocrisy doesnt even match your idiocracy
the forecast is sunny
but im raining on your parade
and as he's blind to see
yes your still stuck on stupid talking to me
and yes i played my position mos definetly dont get mad at me baybee!
and as i was blind to see
the fools rushed in
and opened the door,vulnerablity,arms wide open
yes a fool again like i was once was before
but u can only be blind one time, jumping head first, yes i comitted my crime
but shall i tell ur girl, and let u do the time?!