Paint. You.

I just want to paint you.
Every color, every shade too.
I want this forever.
I'm in it, whatever.
The high I'm on no one can dissolve.
I got into this wanting no feelings at all. Then us, we, our, feelings. Evolved.
Inch by inch
Circumference and centimeters. Dedicated, I'm pushing through.
Through, for me and you.
I feel crazy.
Half past inane.
I just want to paint you
And for you to spell your tongue out to my name.
Lois lane.
Kent Clark in this bitch...
Mary Jane
Spiderman.
All plot twists.
Whomever ain't feeling us, can watch this
I found my forever in your eyes.
Finally I can kiss a lover, and actually not want to say goodbye.

10:02

Now its 10:02
And I can't stop thinking about you
Yet again you frontin on me.
My feelings caught up.
Stuntin on me.
No mystery.

Its 10:02
Why you ignoring me?
You seen my picture pop up on the ID
On the other side of the phone in misery
Is it me?
I know I require much but we're in love
And you can't deny that
Can't see besides that
No faded pictures in a broken glass
Although Case told you that
There's no distant past this is the future
No recluse
This is public
Not what you expected.
Odd future.

Its 10:02
How can I save me from you?
I want to give up this feeling
But it seems eternal
I'll just leave you be...
Although I tried this tactic before.
I charge, unplug, reboot, then want some more.

10:02

forever fantasy.

Taylor had her wildest dream
I'm looking for my forever fantasy
Your skin glowing inside of me
The sun to the moon
Eternity
I'm looking for will you marry me
No longer needing clarity
Because the glass is crystal.
And not half full
The cup runneth over to the floor
So my forever fantasy
Entails a man that's forever for me
Material possessions don't meet the criteria
But adornment honesty and respect are the three courses
No menu or pre requisites can kill our noise.

My forever fantasy
For you and yours.

'86

The reality of you is vibrantly irregular
The vulgarity of your touch makes me want to be handcuffed...
-Pause-
Tied up, choked up.
The four play out pours into my soul
Like milk, transparent like gold
Flow..
Drip..
Drop..
I want some more
I never knew I could feel like this before
As soon as you walk outside the door
I get into low battery mode, I need a charge.
I need some more.
I feel alive.
I feel adored.
I feel set free.
Let me start by saying...
You weren't what I planned for you to be.

Glue.

Guess you're my glue.
There isn't many like you.
Rudimentary, yet true.

Hold me together in the darkest days.
Make sun-rays out of no way.
I owe it to you.

Guess you're my glue.
A true friend indeed.
I seek to you when sick for remedy.

My whole life has turned around.
A sinner turned saint, yes I have been found.
My heart and my hands are light.

Guess you're my glue.
Thank you, most high.

internal diversion.

internal diversion.

internal.
inward.

dried up, no longer hurting.

diversion
diverting

from ones course...
off track.
raggedy, yet still in tact.

fruition.

happiness has entered my fountain of youth.
i found completeness within a hard belly.
spreading jam on my toast not jelly.

fufillment, fufilled.
skill, skilled.
mastered with a plan of perfection.

the plans have come to fruition sooner than expected.

fru·i·tion

here today.

never knew i'd be here today.
never knew i would feel this way.

never knew that words could taste so sweet.
never knew those corners curved in my cheeks.

here.
today.
feel.
way.
sweet.
cheeks.

You

It always boils down to you.
I love you.
It every way that an expression can be explained.
Skin to vein.
Needle to threat
Joint to hand.
You, yes you are my man.

Hands clean

I want my hands clean
No one staring at me
Looking for therapy
I want my hands clean
I'm so pure
Im so clean
No one staring at me
I want my hands clean
I want to leave my burdens on the alter
I want to recover
I want my hands clean
I dont want it apart of me
I've fallen because of it
The light hasn't been so much brighter then
I want my hands clean
I want just to be free.

Breakfast in Versailles.

Breakfast in Versailles.
Feeling like dorothy...
Everything just turned to color.
Shades blind my reality.
I'd rather not ask my mother.
Crepes and macoroons
Chanel and garçon
We live in a river.
No movie
No black and white
No fancy motion picture.
So I dream....
Then I cry
Then I think
About breakfast in Versailles....
Some day
One day
I'll finally tell you why.

Where I sleep.

Where I sleep.
I can feel the wind beneath me.
I refuse to sink.
Where I sleep.
There is no time.
There is hope.
There is faith.
There is encouragement.
Where I sleep.
I swim.
To the outskirts within.
Extrovert with introvert possibilities.
Acknowledging, me.
Where I sleep.
Selfishness lives.
Honesty is naked. & love is understood.
Where I sleep.
Wait...
I don't sleep.
I wish I could.

[minus]cule.

minuscule.
minus.
negative thoughts harbor your interest.
you’d probably instagram your wedding dress.
happiness, have you found it?
stuck to the ground like gum, always looking for the one in EVERYONE.
small.
premature brain.
insect to a lion.
at the bottom of the food chain.
but this is praised.
why is everybody self proclaimed?

my realm, my world.

my realm, my world.
quiet.
peace.
tranquility.
think.
hear.
listen.
fear.
submission.
open heart.
open ears.
my realm, my world, it’ll always be here.

"stuff" for sale.

i got some “stuff” for sale.
in regards to stuff i won’t entail.
no details, just visions.
the humble pie isn’t always eaten.
the best friend isn’t always the best.
the friend isn’t always present.
variables, equations, missing puzzles, these so called relations.
multiplication, as simple as a 3rd grader learns 2x2 yet everyone looks around, no steve, just blues clues.
simple hues.
simple fools.
i got some stuff for sale, can you put it in to use?

Harmless Hunter

harmless hunter.
harm less.
yet he.
hunts her.
do you know exactly what you want?
is your face red?
or is your face green?
do you knw who you are
are your feelings intertwined with your heart
your mind is in the gutter
but your heart is with me
we are glued, we are company.
in an unspoken marriage, we are damaged.
our glasses are broken and need repair.
my vision is excellent but i'm thrown off a bit.
we were never meant.
i fell in love with your image and not your heart.
i fell in love with your mind the one that you cant make up.
harmless.
hunter.
harm.
less.
yet he hunts her.

Sequin.

Sequin.
Embellished.
Ornament.
Flying across the sea.
You your mind and me.
We are a canvas of high quality
The paint splatters.
The pain subsides.
The love comes from behind the sun.
The sky gives what we already won.
Sequin.
Embroidered.
Embryo.
Beginning.
Grow.
Rudimentary stage of anything.
We are the nature of what isn’t developed.
We have the foundation of what one can cherish.
We will never perish.
We will never fall.
You are my sequin, you are that stain that i can never wipe off.

ETW.

He restored my heart.
Its been out of order for a while.
It didnt accept cash cards or coins.
Now it only accepts a currency of its own.
He restored my heart.
My faith.
The beating.
The pace.
He held my hand.
Even when it was raining, and we were under a dark cloud.
He said fuck it lets walk through it,no going inside.
He restored my heart.
And i will never forget him.
My lover, my bestfriend, my everything.

Train Track Love.

Train track love.
Off course.
Stop and go type love.
Is this what we are really made of?
I see more in you than you see in yourself.
You put me high on a pedestal, like a rollercoaster about to collapse.
You soothe my mind and give me clarity.
Totally opposites, but you’re the man for me.
Train.
Thump, thump, thump, thump.
BOOM.
Track.
Tick Tick Tick Tick. Tack.
Collapse.
Yet I love, I love you, I do…

the libra scale;

the libra scale.
shall i even go there?
i feel like i’m in a unknown land.
no vision, no plan.
although i love where i am.
i need your hand.
i’ve been following your directions for a while, but Ive gotten lost a few times, and need to be found.
you hold the key to our journey.
do you want to love or just hurt me?
uncertainty.
mystery.
you.
me.
on a ride to nowhere.
i got out of the car a few times, but as usual i’m here on your scale.
i go up and i go down.
you weigh me, you weigh us, but you can’t weigh love.